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13 Oct 2015 01:24:20
Thank you everyone for your words of encouragement, and for sharing your own experiences. I had no idea how this thread would be accepted so I didn't go into a great deal of detail, but since you have all shared your experiences I will share a little bit more about where this has left me.

I was in a very destructive relationship for 7 years. We both used to smoke weed every day and I can honestly say for my own part that smoking weed contributed greatly to the downfall of that relationship. I used to get angry over the slightest things, especially if I had ran out of weed. I used to take my anger out on my girlfriend, and I used her for money to buy weed, among other things. I didn't work for roughly 50% of those 7 years, and I had no shame in that, providing I had the weed to smoke. I was paranoid constantly, thinking my friends and family were judging me for these things I was doing, and it was like a vicious cycle. The more I smoked the less I wanted to do anything, and the more paranoid I would become that my girlfriend would leave me for it, so the more I became reliant on the weed to quash those feelings of rejection. I became aggressive and violent, not so much to her but to my surroundings, kicking in walls and doors, and throwing things around, and ultimately rejecting anyone who tried to help me. In the end it got to the point that we could no longer be in the house together in the same room. I would spend my days in my bed trying to sleep away these horrible feelings and thoughts, then get up at night when she came to bed to go downstairs and smoke weed.

After 6 months she got fed up of me being like this and left me. I was truly heartbroken, even though I knew everything that had happened had been my own fault. This is when things really took a turn for the worse. I moved into a little flat on my own, and started drinking and smoking so heavily its amazing i'm actually alive to tell you this story. I was at times drinking a bottle of whiskey a night, along with smoking a good few grams of weed. Then started the suicidal thoughts. I was wracked with guilt so much I could not stop thinking about ways to end my life. Every night I would lie in bed thinking of the least painful ways to kill myself. The ONLY reason I didn't do it was how I thought it would affect my family. This went on for about a year.

I was diagnosed with Bipolar disorder, and severe depression, and placed on severe sedative medication which ultimately left me almost zombified. I was barely able to hold a conversation at times, and although the suicidal thoughts had gone, I just felt empty.

I eventually moved out of that place, and into a new house. I was feeling slightly better in myself, but carried on smoking and drinking constantly, always looking for an escape from reality. I stopped taking the anti-schizophrenic tablets, and tried coping just with the weed, and at times I was fine, but then I would slip back into depression again.

Two weeks ago however, I had a minor epiphany. I had been watching lots of conspiracy videos on youtube regarding the world ending (sept 23rd, i'm sure some of you remember). When it didn't happen (as I was expecting in all honesty), I was ready to simply carry on with my life , but something told me that if I carry on the way I have been, i'm not going to make anything of my life ever. Call it what you want, but I swear God helped me here. So I quit smoking and drinking.

Fast forward two weeks and I feel great. By no means perfect but all the suicidal thoughts have gone, and I am slowly looking to go back to work full time. i'm going to be starting a voluntary job soon, and get myself back to being a productive member of society. i'm 100% convinced that the substance abuse is what lead me down this dark, dark road, as when I was 18 when I first started smoking I was a different person entirely.

Anyway sorry for the long post. I just pray that there maybe someone else out there who reads this and can relate, and it can help them. Obviously not everyone is going to have the same experience on weed, and i'm by no means trying to demonize it, but my mental health has severely suffered as a result.

Thanks to everyone who took the time to reply and offer words of encouragement. It really meant a lot.
Jase

28 Aug 2015 23:44:47
I agree it is more than likely illogical, and I have been myself battling with religion my whole life, being brought up as a christian, and this is something that I too scoffed at the thought of at first. However after watching the presentations, I have to say this is one of three things.

1. Sept 23rd is going to be a date of significance, whether it be FEMA, Start of WW3, Global Stock Market crash etc. and maybe as you said, they are using biblical prophesy to bring in their "NWO", or something else ( A fake rapture/ abduction by aliens has also been discussed).

2. A real life Christian/Jewish rapture, certainly the least likely in all probability.

3. The day/week will pass and nothing happens, and this was just another fear-mongering tactic, all created by the elite-ists, to keep people distracted from other issues going on. (Probably the most likely)
The reason I say "created by the elite-ists" is because of as I said in my above post, the amount of pre-programming propaganda relating to this date, is quite significant, even coming from the lips of a leading E.U. representative for climate change (I think he was) stating we have 500 hundred days to avoid "climate chaos", ending on Sept 23rd. Strange choice of words, considering he didn't elaborate on what he meant.

28 Aug 2015 22:46:13
Thanks for your responses Ed033 and Zari, you both make interesting points. ED, I don't think "Illogical" is the term to describe a number of articles I have read or videos I have watched. They seemed very rational, well thought through, aware of other "alternative views", but just had religious overtones. Thanks again.

27 Aug 2015 04:02:49
Im really not sure on this one Ed, thanks for your input BTW, as many have said before on this site, I am not a coincidence theorist, and if something does happen next month then it will definitely be no coincidence to what has been predicted. I have a very strange feeling about this date, after everything I have looked into regarding this, and also things I have noticed myself since then, such as the sheer amount of "Apocalypse" propaganda being spread is crazy.

I could probably name 20 TV shows, Films, or Songs that fit into this genre from the past 5 years (more so recently, I have also noticed) Also to completely disregard religious texts is very naive in my opinion, they have as much validity as any piece of work written by so called modern day "philosophers" or "wise men" so to speak. If you truly believe that these elitists are bringing in an "apocalypse" to follow prophecy etc. then surely you can believe that the Bible, that predicted a lot of things that are happening now, (Mark of the beast, increase in earthquakes and extreme weather, and information being transmitted "to and fro" with ease- all predictions from the Bible regarding the "End Times", must have some validity, as also many other predictions from the Bible have also come true (some even to the exact date- regarding the messiahs birth date)

27 Aug 2015 02:32:59
Also zari, why do you celebrate the equinoxs? With all due respect, I thought Sun worship, and astrological worship (saturn etc. ) is primarily an elitist thesis? I don't claim to know much about this subject, but I know enough to understand that this "Saturnalia" and "Sun Worship" along with worship of the "Stars" is an "elite" viewpoint dating back millenia. Now obviously just because its elitist it doesn't mean it has no basis, but I find it curious that you hold the same beliefs as many you claim to hate? Please don't take this as an attack BTW as I only want to learn of your viewpoints on this subject.

27 Aug 2015 01:27:04
Sorry to disagree zari, as normally all your points are very rational and I can get on board with. However this particular topic, is of some interest to me and I don't think you have done the research to validate your argument. Equinoxes and planetary alignments have no consequence to this theory, the only astronomical event to take into the equation is the four blood moons, which is mentioned throughout the Bible and as far as I am aware the Quran. These events are falling on the Jewish festival of Tabernacle and is relevant in the Jewish and Christian "rapture" prophesy. Again I am not saying I am sure anything will happen on the 23rd of next month. However, out of all the "end of days" stories we have heard throughout the last 20 years, this one seems to have something behind it. If you have more information on this "event" or date then please share. Thanks Jase

26 Aug 2015 01:39:08
Ive looked into this quite a lot recently, watching endless videos about the subject. I have to say the amount of pre-programming in TV shows, films, adverts is quite uncanny. Also a leading billderberger saying we have 500 days to avoid climate chaos, and the date ending on 23 september. Also the pope going to the usa that day for the first time ever, amongst many many other strange coincidences pointing to that date. Also a video channel on youtube under the name "Renee M" is a christian channel where she claims to have deciphered when the "rapture" will happen and it points to that week. Her evidence is actually quite compelling. Now I don't normally buy into these End Of World scenarios, but the more I have looked into this date, the more I believe something is going to happen. It seem far to much evidence points to 23 Sept 2015, for something not to happen. Another point which may or may not be important, is a dream I have had in the past month. It is of not being able to control my rage, and it affecting everyone around me, and everyone just fighting and attacking each other. It was actually very vivid which is unusual for my dreams, and it was as if something took over me and I had no control over my mind or body. Now obviously this could just be my subconcious, putting all this information together in this dream, but it didn't feel like a typical dream, and was so vivid and has stuck in my mind since that I thought I would mention it.

29 Jul 2015 13:08:25
Malaysia held a court which found Bush and Blair guilty of war crimes, and have been pressing the Hague to do something about it (which they have thus far refused to do). Richard D. Hall has a great video about it on, Rich Planet

http://youtube.com/watch?v=aMlp93kldu8

26 Jul 2015 23:27:10
Kim creepypasta is a source of scary stories on the web. The russian sleep experiment is one of them, I read it a few years ago.

26 Jul 2015 21:33:03
Yes richplanet.net is my preffered source of info.

26 Jul 2015 21:23:18
Good post Franky, nice to look at the positives for a change.

24 Jul 2015 00:39:35
Is this not a creepypasta?

22 Jul 2015 16:32:47
Yeah your probably right to be fair ed, never really watched much of him, so I will trust your judgement. Cheers

15 Jul 2015 00:21:57
my ex had a dream of a "big red bus" exploding the night before 7/7.

28 Jun 2015 02:03:48
Perhaps you're right, but again that could have been planned to make people believe just that, so people start looking/thinking there are others, thus diverting the attention away from themselves, and leaving them to carry out their own agenda. I just can't imagine a powerful and ruthless man such as David Rockafeller being controlled by anyone. My guess is that video was a psy-op to make people believe that the "real" power lies elsewhere, and thus making them feel helpless as you can't defend against an "invisible" enemy. Just a theory mind you.

27 Jun 2015 17:50:47
just a theory ed, but perhaps that's what people like the rockafellers and gates want us all to believe

21 Jun 2015 17:59:36
Yes I agree, perhaps also to move attention away from the black man, shot dead by a police officer in the same town only a month or so ago. I find it strange also that he was very cooperative with the police, and he was seen driving through the town the very next day. Surely he would want to be as far away from people who could potentially recognize him as possible. Strange circumstances to say the least.